Ive been so depressed for so long that I dont even know how to be myself. Everyone is so motivated and i have all these ideas for arts and crafts or makeup or nail ideas but then i never do them? Im a different person in my mind. Oh well. I feel like my whole life is a fucking waste. I waste so much damn time worrying about time. I hate being mentally fucked up. I hate myself so fucking much I just want to be as normal and possible.

I am severly fucking depressed and am confused on what path i should take in life. Hairdressing so far is eh. I love makeup so much more, and nails and skincare. I know I need to give it more time but still…..I am so confused. I wish I wasnt in a shit mood.